Touched

I received a mail from Don today.. and he send me this really touching mail with such a indept, sweet and sincer poem.. Feel so sad when i read it, brought up so many memories that was burried deep down inside somewhere...

This is what he wrote...
When time has lost all it's meaning.
Still I cry alone and I wonder what you're thinking crying leaving me behind.
But God has never given the reason why.
All the love, the smile, the laughter would one day have to die.
You blessed me with tears, the tears of joy I never thought I had these years.
You gave me wings to fly, but i never thought that you would be the one to cry.
This love we share was different from the rest, with the world and its people would always put us to test.
But God with his might, his glory, would always know what's for the best.
If it had to end this way, all I can do is hope and pray, that God would let you stay.
But now it is all too late.
Cause God had found you someone to replace me.
To take care, protect and love you like I always do.
Tears roll down my cheek as I write cause no one would feel how i feel tonight.
Anata ga ski.
Take Care, happy birthday

If he didn't do what he did, i am sure we will still be together.. but it's all too late alrady .. even if fate brought us together, destiny will tear us apart.. He's the one guy who has truely love me with all his heart.. i know he did and from reading what he wrote i know he still loves me and all he wants now is for me to be truely happy with my life... Why didn't he love me enuf to stop him from doing what he did.... Deep down inside somewhere within all my burried emotions there still a small part of me that love him.. but it's a love based on the sweet memories that we once shared.. The happiness and the bitterness that we went through.. How he left me with his footprints deeply embedded into my heart... A journey that has to end somehow.. Sad to say it has ended sometime ago.. but the memories are still veri much alive... And truely a good time for me to reflect upon, when i am feeling lonely and need some comfort .. it's those memories that keep me going...

When i first read the poem i couldn't control the tears that flow freely... It was tears of rememberance and memories that were painful to think about.. knowing that he is suffering didn't make it all better.. i somehow feel that i have let him down and sort of cheated on him alittle... Me getting over him and moving on with my life.. with someone new made me feel like a cheat... I hate to think that I have given him hope to wait ..for which i know i didn't .. but i just hope we can still be friends.. and cherish eachother thro being friends... I pray for him, to be able forget me and be able to move on with his life just like I have done so....